PART Three
[b][size=+2]HE DID[/b] not know where he was. Presumably he was in the Ministry of Love, but there was no way of making certain.He was in a high-ceilinged windowless cell with walls of glitteringwhite porcelain. Concealed lamps flooded it with cold light, and therewas a low, steady humming sound which he supposed had something to dowith the air supply. A bench, or shelf, just wide enough to sit on ranround the wall, broken only by the door and, at the end opposite thedoor, a lavatory pan with no wooden seat. There were four telescreens,one in each wall.
There was a dull aching in his belly. It had been there eversince they had bundled him into the closed van and driven him away. Buthe was also hungry, with a gnawing, unwholesome kind of hunger. Itmight be twenty-four hours since he had eaten, it might be thirty-six.He still did not know, probably never would know, whether it had beenmorning or evening when they arrested him. Since he was arrested he hadnot been fed.
He sat as still as he could on the narrow bench, with his handscrossed on his knee. He had already learned to sit still. If you madeunexpected movements they yelled at you from the telescreen. But thecraving for food was growing upon him. What he longed for above all wasa piece of bread. He had an idea that there were a few breadcrumbs inthe pocket of his overalls. It was even possible—he thought thisbecause from time to time something seemed to tickle his leg—that theremight be a sizeable bit of crust there. In the end the temptation tofind out overcame his fear; he slipped a hand into his pocket.
‘Smith!’ yelled a voice from the telescreen. ‘6079 Smith W.! Hands out of pockets in the cells!’
He sat still again, his hands crossed on his knee. Before beingbrought here he had been taken to another place which must have been anordinary prison or a temporary lock-up used by the patrols. He did notknow how long he had been there; some hours at any rate; with no clocksand no daylight it was hard to gauge the time. It was a noisy,evil-smelling place. They had put him into a cell similar to the one hewas now in, but filthily dirty and at all times crowded by ten orfifteen people. The majority of them were common criminals, but therewere a few political prisoners among them. He had sat silent againstthe wall, jostled by dirty bodies, too preoccupied by fear and the painin his belly to take much interest in his surroundings, but stillnoticing the astonishing difference in demeanour between the Partyprisoners and the others. The Party prisoners were always silent andterrified, but the ordinary criminals seemed to care nothing foranybody. They yelled insults at the guards, fought back fiercely whentheir belongings were impounded, wrote obscene words on the floor, atesmuggled food which they produced from mysterious hiding-places intheir clothes, and even shouted down the telescreen when it tried torestore order. On the other hand some of them seemed to be on goodterms with the guards, called them by nicknames, and tried to wheedlecigarettes through the spyhole in the door. The guards, too, treatedthe common criminals with a certain forbearance, even when they had tohandle them roughly. There was much talk about the forced-labour campsto which most of the prisoners expected to be sent. It was ‘all right’in the camps, he gathered, so long as you had good contacts and knewthe ropes. There was bribery, favouritism, and racketeering of everykind, there was homosexuality and prostitution, there was even illicitalcohol distilled from potatoes. The positions of trust were given onlyto the common criminals, especially the gangsters and the murderers,who formed a sort of aristocracy. All the dirty jobs were done by thepoliticals.
There was a constant come-and-go of prisoners of everydescription: drug-peddlers, thieves, bandits, black- marketeers,drunks, prostitutes. Some of the drunks were so violent that the otherprisoners had to combine to suppress them. An enormous wreck of awoman, aged about sixty, with great tumbling breasts and thick coils ofwhite hair which had come down in her struggles, was carried in,kicking and shouting, by four guards, who had hold of her one at eachcorner. They wrenched off the boots with which she had been trying tokick them, and dumped her down across Winston’s lap, almost breakinghis thigh-bones. The woman hoisted herself upright and followed themout with a yell of ‘F—— bastards!’ Then, noticing that she was sittingon something uneven, she slid off Winston’s knees on to the bench.
‘Beg pardon, dearie,’ she said. ‘I wouldn’t ’a sat on you, onlythe buggers put me there. They dono ’ow to treat a lady, do they?’ Shepaused, patted her breast, and belched. ‘Pardon,’ she said, ‘I ain’tmeself, quite.’
She leant forward and vomited copiously on the floor.
‘Thass better,’ she said, leaning back with closed eyes. ‘Neverkeep it down, thass what I say. Get it up while it’s fresh on yourstomach, like.’
She revived, turned to have another look at Winston and seemedimmediately to take a fancy to him. She put a vast arm round hisshoulder and drew him towards her, breathing beer and vomit into hisface.
‘Wass your name, dearie?’ she said.
‘Smith,’ said Winston.
‘Smith?’ said the woman. ‘Thass funny. My name’s Smith too. Why,’ she added sentimentally, ‘I might be your mother!’
She might, thought Winston, be his mother. She was about theright age and physique, and it was probable that people changedsomewhat after twenty years in a forced-labour camp.
No one else had spoken to him. To a surprising extent the ordinary criminals ignored the Party prisoners. ‘The polits,’they called them, with a sort of uninterested contempt. The Partyprisoners seemed terrified of speaking to anybody, and above all ofspeaking to one another. Only once, when two Party members, both women,were pressed close together on the bench, he overheard amid the din ofvoices a few hurriedly-whispered words; and in particular a referenceto something called ‘room one-ohone’, which he did not understand.
It might be two or three hours ago that they had brought himhere. The dull pain in his belly never went away, but sometimes it grewbetter and sometimes worse, and his thoughts expanded or contractedaccordingly. When it grew worse he thought only of the pain itself, andof his desire for food. When it grew better, panic took hold of him.There were moments when he foresaw the things that would happen to himwith such actuality that his heart galloped and his breath stopped. Hefelt the smash of truncheons on his elbows and iron-shod boots on hisshins; he saw himself grovelling on the floor, screaming for mercythrough broken teeth. He hardly thought of Julia. He could not fix hismind on her. He loved her and would not betray her; but that was only afact, known as he knew the rules of arithmetic. He felt no love forher, and he hardly even wondered what was happening to her. He thoughtoftener of O’Brien, with a flickering hope. O’Brien might know that hehad been arrested. The Brotherhood, he had said, never tried to saveits members. But there was the razor blade; they would send the razorblade if they could. There would be perhaps five seconds before theguard could rush into the cell. The blade would bite into him with asort of burning coldness, and even the fingers that held it would becut to the bone. Everything came back to his sick body, which shranktrembling from the smallest pain. He was not certain that he would usethe razor blade even if he got the chance. It was more natural to existfrom moment to moment, accepting another ten minutes’ life even withthe certainty that there was torture at the end of it.
Sometimes he tried to calculate the number of porcelain bricksin the walls of the cell. It should have been easy, but he always lostcount at some point or another. More often he wondered where he was,and what time of day it was. At one moment he felt certain that it wasbroad daylight outside, and at the next equally certain that it waspitch darkness. In this place, he knew instinctively, the lights wouldnever be turned out. It was the place with no darkness: he saw now whyO’Brien had seemed to recognize the allusion. In the Ministry of Lovethere were no windows. His cell might be at the heart of the buildingor against its outer wall; it might be ten floors below ground, orthirty above it. He moved himself mentally from place to place, andtried to determine by the feeling of his body whether he was perchedhigh in the air or buried deep underground.
There was a sound of marching boots outside. The steel dooropened with a clang. A young officer, a trim black- uniformed figurewho seemed to glitter all over with polished leather, and whose pale,straight-featured face was like a wax mask, stepped smartly through thedoorway. He motioned to the guards outside to bring in the prisonerthey were leading. The poet Ampleforth shambled into the cell. The doorclanged shut again.
Ampleforth made one or two uncertain movements from side toside, as though having some idea that there was another door to go outof, and then began to wander up and down the cell. He had not yetnoticed Winston’s presence. His troubled eyes were gazing at the wallabout a metre above the level of Winston’s head. He was shoeless;large, dirty toes were sticking out of the holes in his socks. He wasalso several days away from a shave. A scrubby beard covered his faceto the cheekbones, giving him an air of ruffianism that went oddly withhis large weak frame and nervous movements.
Winston roused hirnself a little from his lethargy. He mustspeak to Ampleforth, and risk the yell from the telescreen. It was evenconceivable that Ampleforth was the bearer of the razor blade.
‘Ampleforth,’ he said.
There was no yell from the telescreen. Ampleforth paused, mildly startled. His eyes focused themselves slowly on Winston.
‘Ah, Smith!’ he said. ‘You too!’
‘What are you in for?’
‘To tell you the truth—‘ He sat down awkwardly on the benchopposite Winston. ‘There is only one offence, is there not?’ he said.
‘And have you committed it?’
‘Apparently I have.’
He put a hand to his forehead and pressed his temples for a moment, as though trying to remember something.
‘These things happen,’ he began vaguely. ‘I have been able torecall one instance—a possible instance. It was an indiscretion,undoubtedly. We were producing a definitive edition of the poems ofKipling. I allowed the word “God” to remain at the end of a line. Icould not help it!’ he added almost indignantly, raising his face tolook at Winston. ‘It was impossible to change the line. The rhyme was“rod”. Do you realize that there are only twelve rhymes to “rod” in theentire language? For days I had racked my brains. There was no other rhyme.’
The expression on his face changed. The annoyance passed out of it andfor a moment he looked almost pleased. A sort of intellectual warmth,the joy of the pedant who has found out some useless fact, shonethrough the dirt and scrubby hair.
‘Has it ever occurred to you,’ he said, ‘that the whole historyof English poetry has been determined by the fact that the Englishlanguage lacks rhymes?’
No, that particular thought had never occurred to Winston. Nor,in the circumstances, did it strike him as very important orinteresting.
‘Do you know what time of day it is?’ he said.
Ampleforth looked startled again. ‘I had hardly thought aboutit. They arrested me—it could be two days ago—perhaps three.’ His eyesflitted round the walls, as though he half expected to find a windowsomewhere. ‘There is no difference between night and day in this place.I do not see how one can calculate the time.’
They talked desultorily for some minutes, then, withoutapparent reason, a yell from the telescreen bade them be silent.Winston sat quietly, his hands crossed. Ampleforth, too large to sit incomfort on the narrow bench, fidgeted from side to side, clasping hislank hands first round one knee, then round the other. The telescreenbarked at him to keep still. Time passed. Twenty minutes, an hour—itwas difficult to judge. Once more there was a sound of boots outside.Winston’s entrails contracted. Soon, very soon, perhaps in fiveminutes, perhaps now, the tramp of boots would mean that his own turnhad come.
The door opened. The cold-faced young officer stepped into the cell. With a brief movement of the hand he indicated Ampleforth.
‘Room 101,’ he said.
Ampleforth marched clumsily out between the guards, his face vaguely perturbed, but uncomprehending.
What seemed like a long time passed. The pain in Winston’s bellyhad revived. His mind sagged round and round on the same trick, like aball falling again and again into the same series of slots. He had onlysix thoughts. The pain in his belly; a piece of bread; the blood andthe screaming; O’Brien ; Julia; the razor blade. There was anotherspasm in his entrails, the heavy boots were approaching. As the dooropened, the wave of air that it created brought in a powerful smell ofcold sweat. Parsons walked into the cell. He was wearing khaki shortsand a sports-shirt.
This time Winston was startled into self-forgetfulness.
‘You here!’ he said.
Parsons gave Winston a glance in which there was neitherinterest nor surprise, but only misery. He began walking jerkily up anddown, evidently unable to keep still. Each time he straightened hispudgy knees it was apparent that they were trembling. His eyes had awide-open, staring look, as though he could not prevent himself fromgazing at something in the middle distance.
‘What are you in for?’ said Winston.
‘Thoughtcrime!’ said Parsons, almost blubbering. The tone of hisvoice implied at once a complete admission of his guilt and a sort ofincredulous horror that such a word could be applied to himself. Hepaused opposite Winston and began eagerly appealing to him: ‘You don’tthink they’ll shoot me, do you, old chap? They don’t shoot you if youhaven’t actually done anything—only thoughts, which you can’t help? Iknow they give you a fair hearing. Oh, I trust them for that! They’llknow my record, won’t they? You know what kind of chap I was. Not a badchap in my way. Not brainy, of course, but keen. I tried to do my bestfor the Party, didn’t I? I’ll get off with five years, don’t you think?Or even ten years? A chap like me could make himself pretty useful in alabour-camp. They wouldn’t shoot me for going off the rails just once?’
‘Are you guilty?’ said Winston.
‘Of course I’m guilty !’ cried Parsons with a servile glance atthe telescreen. ‘You don’t think the Party would arrest an innocentman, do you?’ His frog-like face grew calmer, and even took on aslightly sanctimonious expression. ‘Thoughtcrime is a dreadful thing,old man,’ he said sententiously. ‘It’s insidious. It can get hold ofyou without your even knowing it. Do you know how it got hold of me? Inmy sleep! Yes, that’s a fact. There I was, working away, trying to domy bit—never knew I had any bad stuff in my mind at all. And then Istarted talking in my sleep. Do you know what they heard me saying?’
He sank his voice, like someone who is obliged for medical reasons to utter an obscenity.
‘“Down with Big Brother!” Yes, I said that! Said it over andover again, it seems. Between you and me, old man, I’m glad they got mebefore it went any further. Do you know what I’m going to say to themwhen I go up before the tribunal? “Thank you,” I’m going to say, “thankyou for saving me before it was too late.”’
‘Who denounced you?’ said Winston.
‘It was my little daughter,’ said Parsons with a sort of dolefulpride. ‘She listened at the keyhole. Heard what I was saying, andnipped off to the patrols the very next day. Pretty smart for a nipperof seven, eh? I don’t bear her any grudge for it. In fact I’m proud ofher. It shows I brought her up in the right spirit, anyway.’
He made a few more jerky movements up and down, several times,casting a longing glance at the lavatory pan. Then he suddenly rippeddown his shorts.
‘Excuse me, old man,’ he said. ‘I can’t help it. It’s the waiting.’
He plumped his large posterior into the lavatory pan. Winston covered his face with his hands.
‘Smith!’ yelled the voice from the telescreen. ‘6079 Smith W! Uncover your face. No faces covered in the cells.’
Winston uncovered his face. Parsons used the lavatory, loudlyand abundantly. It then turned out that the plug was defective and thecell stank abominably for hours afterwards.
Parsons was removed. More prisoners came and went,mysteriously. One, a woman, was consigned to ‘Room 101’, and, Winstonnoticed, seemed to shrivel and turn a different colour when she heardthe words. A time came when, if it had been morning when he was broughthere, it would be afternoon; or if it had been afternoon, then it wouldbe midnight. There were six prisoners in the cell, men and women. Allsat very still. Opposite Winston there sat a man with a chinless,toothy face exactly like that of some large, harmless rodent. His fat,mottled cheeks were so pouched at the bottom that it was difficult notto believe that he had little stores of food tucked away there. Hispale-grey eyes flitted timorously from face to face and turned quicklyaway again when he caught anyone’s eye.
The door opened, and another prisoner was brought in whoseappearance sent a momentary chill through Winston. He was acommonplace, mean-looking man who might have been an engineer ortechnician of some kind. But what was startling was the emaciation ofhis face. It was like a skull. Because of its thinness the mouth andeyes looked disproportionately large, and the eyes seemed filled with amurderous, unappeasable hatred of somebody or something.
The man sat down on the bench at a little distance fromWinston. Winston did not look at him again, but the tormented,skull-like face was as vivid in his mind as though it had been straightin front of his eyes. Suddenly he realized what was the matter. The manwas dying of starvation. The same thought seemed to occur almostsimultaneously to everyone in the cell. There was a very faint stirringall the way round the bench. The eyes of the chinless man kept flittingtowards the skull-faced man, then turning guiltily away, then beingdragged back by an irresistible attraction. Presently he began tofidget on his seat. At last he stood up, waddled clumsily across thecell, dug down into the pocket of his overalls, and, with an abashedair, held out a grimy piece of bread to the skull-faced man.
There was a furious, deafening roar from the telescreen. Thechinless man jumped in his tracks. The skull-faced man had quicklythrust his hands behind his back, as though demonstrating to all theworld that he refused the gift.
‘Bumstead!’ roared the voice. ‘2713 Bumstead J.! Let fall that piece of bread!’
The chinless man dropped the piece of bread on the floor.
‘Remain standing where you are,’ said the voice. ‘Face the door. Make no movement.’
The chinless man obeyed. His large pouchy cheeks were quiveringuncontrollably. The door clanged open. As the young officer entered andstepped aside, there emerged from behind him a short stumpy guard withenormous arms and shoulders. He took his stand opposite the chinlessman, and then, at a signal from the officer, let free a frightful blow,with all the weight of his body behind it, full in the chinless man’smouth. The force of it seemed almost to knock him clear of the floor.His body was flung across the cell and fetched up against the base ofthe lavatory seat. For a moment he lay as though stunned, with darkblood oozing from his mouth and nose. A very faint whimpering orsqueaking, which seemed unconscious, came out of him. Then he rolledover and raised himself unsteadily on hands and knees. Amid a stream ofblood and saliva, the two halves of a dental plate fell out of hismouth.
The prisoners sat very still, their hands crossed on theirknees. The chinless man climbed back into his place. Down one side ofhis face the flesh was darkening. His mouth had swollen into ashapeless cherry-coloured mass with a black hole in the middle of it.
From time to time a little blood dripped on to the breast of hisoveralls. His grey eyes still flitted from face to face, more guiltilythan ever, as though he were trying to discover how much the othersdespised him for his humiliation.
The door opened. With a small gesture the officer indicated the skull-faced man.
‘Room 101,’ he said.
There was a gasp and a flurry at Winston’s side. The man had actuallyflung himself on his knees on the floor, with his hand claspedtogether.
‘Comrade! Officer!’ he cried. ‘You don’t have to take me tothat place! Haven’t I told you everything already? What else is it youwant to know? There’s nothing I wouldn’t confess, nothing! Just tell mewhat it is and I’ll confess straight off. Write it down and I’ll signit—anything! Not room 101 !’
‘Room 101,’ said the officer.
The man’s face, already very pale, turned a colour Winston wouldnot have believed possible. It was definitely, unmistakably, a shade ofgreen.
‘Do anything to me!’ he yelled. ‘You’ve been starving me forweeks. Finish it off and let me die. Shoot me. Hang me. Sentence me totwenty-five years. Is there somebody else you want me to give away?Just say who it is and I’ll tell you anything you want. I don’t carewho it is or what you do to them. I’ve got a wife and three children.The biggest of them isn’t six years old. You can take the whole lot ofthem and cut their throats in front of my eyes, and I’ll stand by andwatch it. But not Room 101!’
‘Room 101,’ said the officer.
The man looked frantically round at the other prisoners, asthough with some idea that he could put another victim in his ownplace. His eyes settled on the smashed face of the chinless man. Heflung out a lean arm.
‘That’s the one you ought to be taking, not me!’ he shouted.‘You didn’t hear what he was saying after they bashed his face. Give mea chance and I’ll tell you every word of it. He’sthe one that’s against the Party, not me.’ The guards stepped forward.The man’s voice rose to a shriek. ‘You didn’t hear him!’ he repeated.‘Something went wrong with the telescreen. He’s the one you want. Take him, not me!’
The two sturdy guards had stooped to take him by the arms. But just atthis moment he flung himself across the floor of the cell and grabbedone of the iron legs that supported the bench. He had set up a wordlesshowling, like an animal. The guards took hold of him to wrench himloose, but he clung on with astonishing strength. For perhaps twentyseconds they were hauling at him. The prisoners sat quiet, their handscrossed on their knees, looking straight in front of them. The howlingstopped; the man had no breath left for anything except hanging on.Then there was a different kind of cry. A kick from a guard’s boot hadbroken the fingers of one of his hands. They dragged him to his feet.
‘Room 101,’ said the officer.
The man was led out, walking unsteadily, with head sunken, nursing his crushed hand, all the fight had gone out of him.
A long time passed. If it had been midnight when the skull-facedman was taken away, it was morning: if morning, it was afternoon.Winston was alone, and had been alone for hours. The pain of sitting onthe narrow bench was such that often he got up and walked about,unreproved by the telescreen. The piece of bread still lay where thechinless man had dropped it. At the beginning it needed a hard effortnot to look at it, but presently hunger gave way to thirst. His mouthwas sticky and evil-tasting. The humming sound and the unvarying whitelight induced a sort of faintness, an empty feeling inside his head. Hewould get up because the ache in his bones was no longer bearable, andthen would sit down again almost at once because he was too dizzy tomake sure of staying on his feet. Whenever his physical sensations werea little under control the terror returned. Sometimes with a fadinghope he thought of O’Brien and the razor blade. It was thinkable thatthe razor blade might arrive concealed in his food, if he were everfed. More dimly he thought of Julia. Somewhere or other she wassuffering perhaps far worse than he. She might be screaming with painat this moment. He thought: ‘If I could save Julia by doubling my ownpain, would I do it? Yes, I would.’ But that was merely an intellectualdecision, taken because he knew that he ought to take it. He did notfeel it. In this place you could not feel anything, except pain andforeknowledge of pain. Besides, was it possible, when you were actuallysuffering it, to wish for any reason that your own pain shouldincrease? But that question was not answerable yet.
The boots were approaching again. The door opened. O’Brien came in.
Winston started to his feet. The shock of the sight had drivenall caution out of him. For the first time in many years he forgot thepresence of the telescreen.
‘They’ve got you too!’ he cried.
‘They got me a long time ago,’ said O’Brien with a mild, almostregretful irony. He stepped aside. from behind him there emerged abroad-chested guard with a long black truncheon in his hand.
‘You know him, Winston,’ said O’Brien. ‘Don’t deceive yourself. You did know it—you have always known it.’
Yes, he saw now, he had always known it. But there was no timeto think of that. All he had eyes for was the truncheon in the guard’shand. It might fall anywhere; on the crown, on the tip of the ear, onthe upper arm, on the elbow——
The elbow! He had slumped to his knees, almost paralysed,clasping the stricken elbow with his other hand. Everything hadexploded into yellow light. Inconceivable, inconceivable that one blowcould cause such pain! The light cleared and he could see the other twolooking down at him. The guard was laughing at his contortions. Onequestion at any rate was answered. Never, for any reason on earth,could you wish for an increase of pain. Of pain you could wish only onething: that it should stop. Nothing in the world was so bad as physicalpain. In the face of pain there are no heroes, no heroes, he thoughtover and over as he writhed on the floor, clutching uselessly at hisdisabled left arm.